You might know Jason as Big Man Sas on Twitter.
He’s married with three wonderful kids and an awesome wife, living in
Washington state. He says, “I’ve struggled with my weight for most of my adult
life and decided it was time to make a lifestyle change by running and eating
right.” Check out Jason's blog at BigManRunning.com.
It was
a beautiful summer evening in the Northwest when I realized I was really out of
shape. I mean all the signs were there, especially the reflection I saw in the
mirror, but sometimes it takes one pivotal event that makes you realize what’s
wrong.
I sat
on my porch in my favorite chair, enjoying the fading light of the sun and the
sounds of the trees blowing in the gentle wind. I have been here many nights
before and many nights since. I have always liked being outside and connecting
with nature, ever since I was a kid. I find it relaxing and peaceful, an escape
from the stress of the day.
This
night would prove not to be one of those evenings.
As I
sat, lost in a book I was reading, I felt a subtle shift in my
chair. Nothing major, just a small movement that could have been just me
adjusting my position. I checked the chair best I could, stretching as best I
could to check the legs and connections. Seeing nothing, I leapt back into my
book without a care.
That’s
when it happened. The front legs, stressed under my 316-pound body, gave way.
They folded straight out and my once comfortable seat inclined, sliding me
right out onto the porch. I sat there on my butt thinking, “I need to lose some
weight.”
Not Always a Big Man
I
wasn’t always a Big Man. In fact, growing up, I was really skinny. I played soccer
and was active all the time -- riding bikes, playing with friends, normal kid
stuff. It wasn’t till I went to college that I started to put on some weight. I
wasn’t as active as I was before, but I really didn’t notice anything wrong,
just I was getting a little gut.
No big
deal! I played soccer still, I was active in an improv group, and I could still
buy my clothes from places like the Gap. I really wasn’t concerned with it.
I
really never thought about my weight till I ran into an old high school friend.
I was working at a restaurant and he came in one day. We caught up on what we
had been doing for the last few years, just like we never missed a day.
He did
leave me with one comment that got me to thinking: “You look a lot bigger.”
That
started my dieting phase.
Yo-Yo Dieting
I knew
I needed to lose weight and I wanted to do it fast. Everywhere I looked, there
were plans promising to be the end-all of dieting, and I tried a bunch of them.
All of them have their advantages, as you can lose weight fast, but it never
lasted.
The
biggest problem I had was restricting my diet so much. I would shed weight like
it was no one’s business and I was committed. I tried Atkins, Weight Watchers, calorie
counting -- and they all worked for a time. I even entered a biggest loser
contest at my local gym and won! The issue was, after I lost the weight, I
would stop dieting.
It was
like I was rewarding myself for losing the weight by eating all the food I
wanted. I thought if I could lose all this weight, I could take a break and
just get back to it when I wanted to lose more. Basically start where I left
off.
I was
sabotaging my own plan!
This
was the cycle I was stuck in for years. Lose weight, gain it back and more, and
then lose weight again. Not a very healthy lifestyle.
Eventually,
I decided there was no point in dieting. Every time I tried, I would just fail
and gain all my weight back. So I stopped trying to lose weight for years and
just ate what I wanted and sat on the couch watching TV and playing video
games.
Big Man Lifestyle
Being a
Big Man is tough. Things aren’t really made for your size, and it can be pretty
embarrassing to try to fit into chairs and spaces that others have no issue
doing.
Movie
theaters, sports arenas and planes were not my friends. I was embarrassed to
try to squeeze into a seat next to someone and have my fat roll over the
armrest and into his or her seat. If I could take up two seats, it would make
things a little easier.
Going
to restaurants was a challenge also. I didn’t fit in booths and would always
hope for a table. The problem was that most people like booths, and whenever I
would go with a group, we would end up in one. Having my belly press up against
the table was not only extremely uncomfortable, it was extremely embarrassing.
Unless
I was alone, eating out was not fun. In fact, the drive-through became my best
friend. I could get what I want and eat in peace, with no one there to judge
me.
I ended
up limiting myself to what I wanted to do based on my size. It was frustrating.
Time for a Change
It all
came together when I slid off my porch chair that summer night. I realized I was
heading for an early grave. My wife and kids were concerned about my health. I
had no energy and no passion to do anything. I was tired all the time and
depressed.
I had
figured this was how the rest of my life was going to be and it was hard to
accept. I had to do something.
So I
decided to make a drastic change in my life. I decided to take up running!
I had
never run before (except in school when we were required to), and had it never
really interested me, but I had to do something. I looked at runners and how
they appeared, and thought that is what I want, to be skinny and healthy.
I found
a plan to get me off the couch and go from walking to running, and headed out
the door, full of hope and promise. Things were going to be different this
time.
The
biggest change I made, and the one thing that keeps me going, is
accountability. This accountability was not only to my family and friends, but
also to the world. Before, if I failed, only a few close family members would
know -- if any. That’s not so hard to get past. But having to explain myself to
a bunch of people is not worth the effort to stop losing weight.
I
started a blog and began chronicling each and every run on my journey. How I felt,
how the runs went, how far -- everything.
I
coupled that with eating less and eating right. I’ve always heard weight loss
is 80 percent diet and 20 percent exercise, so I knew I had to make a change
there (again). It is a simple calorie-tracking app I am using, going for
sustained weight loss over time.
Consistent
running and accountability have given me the motivation I need to remain on this
path. Without them, I am positive I would have repeated the diet yo-yo and been
worse off than before.
On the
day I am writing this, I have lost 47 pounds!
I don’t
plan on stopping anytime soon.
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